2010?

I'm a couple weeks late in bringing in the new year on here. I feel like I'm a couple weeks late in reality as well. It just hasn't hit me that this is 2010. I feel as if I'm kind of in a dream. I've had a lot on my mind; I'll blame it on that.

As for the business side of things in this new decade, I'm still working up at Central Baptist Church as an intern/Girls Associate. I still love the job, my co-workers, and all of the students that I've grown so close with. I'm not sure I'm cut out for or "called" to work with a church the rest of my life, but God has definitely blessed my time here, and I'm looking forward to another semester. I have a new job in the medical field, working as a Physical Therapy Technician. I take patients through their exercises, do ultrasounds on them, massage them, and do the occasional load of laundry. I love it. I don't ever feel like I'm working. I absolutely enjoy every minute I get to spend with the patients. I think God has given me a special love and special grace even for the difficult ones, and I feel like He is getting to bless them through me. Also, since my love language is physical touch, giving people massages has been such a joy and blessing for me. I know that sounds crazy, especially when sometimes dealing with hairy backs and smelly feet, but I truly love every second of those massages. I got an interview at Baylor P.A. school! I'll be going this coming Thursday and Friday. So say a prayer for me that God will give me wisdom and direction, as well as the staff interviewing me.

This is one of the first years that I haven't sat down and written out New Year's Resolutions. I keep putting them off, and now I'm starting to wonder if that says something about me this year...I feel like I don't want to write anything down. I feel very in between things, in a lot of ways. With school, with friends, with life, with locations, etc. It's hard for me to think ahead when there are so many directions ahead of me. It's like my next foot forward determines the path I take, and there are so many paths branching out from me right now.

I think part of it, too, is that I have in my mind the path that I want, but it's not time to take a step yet. So I do think 2010 is on hold for me. I'm standing in place, waiting for the next signal to go forward. This interview on Thursday will bring some answers in that aspect. But still, in everything, I'm just waiting. I know I'm not, but it feels like I'm in between years. I'll let you know when 2010 hits my time zone.