Souls have different languages. Some speak written music, others sing, while still others speak verbally with eloquence. My soul speaks words - on paper, or even before that, stringing together in my mind like long daisy chains. But often when I open my mouth to let them out, the chains are broken; the flowers are blown away.
At times I am frustrated, as it's hard for me to express what my soul knows. Sometimes I feel like my soul speaks a different language than my mind, so when I talk, my heart is lost in translation. But it is my soul that hears from the Lord, as it is His lovely dwelling place. Because He dwells there, anywhere that I might wander has little significance; it is He who guides, He who directs, He who is always constant. He is sovereign in this journey.
In the past, I have been hesitant to share the poetry, analogies, memoir papers, etc. After all, I am the only one who can truly see that my wandering has purpose. But it's time for me to share my wanderings. J.R.R. Tolkien said, "Not all who wander are lost." My wandering soul is steady because of it's Maker, because it is the dwelling place for the most High God.
So now, my soul speaks.
I have read each and every one of these, and I just want to say that there are no words to describe your beautiful insight and this gift the Lord has given you. I find that I also write much better than I speak and I only recently discovered this when I began writing some notes on facebook. I know exactly what you mean when you say that when you try to speak these things and convey your thoughts to other people, it's just like your words are blown away from your mind. It just doesn't come out at all like what you desired. I have never tried poetry or a song yet but it sounds like an interesting endeavor :) May God show you his unending grace, love, and mercy and lead you along this pilgrimage of the Christian life. I recently read "A Pilgrim's Progress" by John Bunyan. It was originally written in Old English but has been rewritten in Modern English. It is an extremely good book. Also "Hidden in Plain Sight: The Secret of More" by Matt Buchanan is an excellent book that focuses on Peter and the verses in 2 Peter 1:3-11. I have so much time to read during the summer so I read a lot of books :)
ReplyDeleteGreat post SEB. Sometimes, I feel the same way.
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